ExHaUsTiOn....

Today has been hectic. I'm back-up for our team leader at work while she's on maternity leave and I had to facilitate a regional meeting this afternoon. I am excited to do these duties but I get sooo nervous when it comes to voicing my opinions and ideas that its stressful. I hope that one day soon I can get over my fear of public speaking. Everyone keeps telling me it comes with age and experience; but the thing is, at my old job I was collections and made phone calls all the time. And I'm 24 and have had so much schooling and practice with speaking up you'd think I'd have it down by now. I wish I did.

Home life is kinda crazy lately. My Mom is just unbearable, everytime I have to talk to her she goes on and on about EVERY negative thing in her life she can possibly think of to rant and rave about. I'm so tired of her complaining about things that are absolutely in her control to change yet she does nothing to better her situation; i.e.: "I have no money.... I just bought a bunch of shelves that i dont need..."

Don and I are moving on Feb 4th and I just cant wait to get out of the shit town we live in now and back to the city I love. I have soo much packing to do still. Oey.

Don's step-mom turns 60 on superbowl Sunday. She's so pretty and active, she seems more like she's in her mid 40s than 60. 60 is the new 40, or at least it is for her. Her parents have/had alzheimers and I worry about her developing it someday. She keeps herself very busy and they say this helps reduce the risk of alzheimers so thats good.

Tonight I'm subbing on bowling league for a friend at work. I've been working on my "skill" and slowly getting better I think. The last few game scores I've bowled were: 79, 52, 92, 87, 93, 87, 162, 81, 103 .... the 162 was bowled during cosmic bowling so I think I was more comfortable with the lights off thinking no one could see me! I was with my brother too and he makes me calmer.... I hope to do well tonight.

Well, I'm at work and just wanted to take a "cigarette" break, so I'm gonna get back to the grindstone. C-ya!