ExHaUsTiOn....

Today has been hectic. I'm back-up for our team leader at work while she's on maternity leave and I had to facilitate a regional meeting this afternoon. I am excited to do these duties but I get sooo nervous when it comes to voicing my opinions and ideas that its stressful. I hope that one day soon I can get over my fear of public speaking. Everyone keeps telling me it comes with age and experience; but the thing is, at my old job I was collections and made phone calls all the time. And I'm 24 and have had so much schooling and practice with speaking up you'd think I'd have it down by now. I wish I did.

Home life is kinda crazy lately. My Mom is just unbearable, everytime I have to talk to her she goes on and on about EVERY negative thing in her life she can possibly think of to rant and rave about. I'm so tired of her complaining about things that are absolutely in her control to change yet she does nothing to better her situation; i.e.: "I have no money.... I just bought a bunch of shelves that i dont need..."

Don and I are moving on Feb 4th and I just cant wait to get out of the shit town we live in now and back to the city I love. I have soo much packing to do still. Oey.

Don's step-mom turns 60 on superbowl Sunday. She's so pretty and active, she seems more like she's in her mid 40s than 60. 60 is the new 40, or at least it is for her. Her parents have/had alzheimers and I worry about her developing it someday. She keeps herself very busy and they say this helps reduce the risk of alzheimers so thats good.

Tonight I'm subbing on bowling league for a friend at work. I've been working on my "skill" and slowly getting better I think. The last few game scores I've bowled were: 79, 52, 92, 87, 93, 87, 162, 81, 103 .... the 162 was bowled during cosmic bowling so I think I was more comfortable with the lights off thinking no one could see me! I was with my brother too and he makes me calmer.... I hope to do well tonight.

Well, I'm at work and just wanted to take a "cigarette" break, so I'm gonna get back to the grindstone. C-ya!

The Beginning

Its close to the beginning of the New Year so I guess I'll start off with those pesky new years resolutions....

1) get a healthier lifestyle - be more active on a daily basis and eat better

2) save money and plan the wedding - Don and I are getting married in 15 months and have done so very little

3) stop biting my finger nails (this has been a new years resolution since I was 14!)

4) how many of these do I have to have?

As far as this blog page goes....I was "bored" at work b/c our team has been having a lot of "down time" lately, and I was browsing pictures of Samoyeds online b/c I ABSOLUTELY love those dogs, and I came across someones blog page and started reading her blogs. It was so interesting to learn about this other person and the randomness of her every day life. She was from the UK and was talking about her politics and her husband and child and I loved reading it and thinking about my life 5 years from now. Thinking about how nice it would be to have creating a memoir of my life with Don and starting a family together. Getting our first home. Talking about our jobs. Everything. And to have a place for my friends to stop by and see me and see how I'm doing if they are missing me and its too late to call. =P

So hello everyone. I'm sure I'll bore you to death most days. But I would love for you to post comments and keep in touch this way.